I'm Done!!!!!

That's right, folks. I'm ALL DONE with my cancer treatments - both chemo AND radiation. Wahoooooo!!!!!

Now what do I do with my time??

People keep asking me what I'm going to do to celebrate. Well, my throat still hurts so eating still hurts, and to me, celebration = food, so that's on hold for now.

I've also noticed that I am becoming more introverted and private again. During treatments, I kind of NEEDED to be open and willing to let others help me. Now I am regaining strength and I don't need as much help and I think I'm getting kind of tired of being the topic of conversation.

I cut my hair into a pixie because it was SUPER shaggy and looking scraggly. Not a good look. :) Now I just have the old lady balding on the top of my head to deal with. But I know that the hair on the rest of my body is starting to grow back in, so I'm assuming my head hair is too. I hope it is. :)

The past couple of days I have wanted to go running. Maybe one day this week I actually will. I need new shoes - mine KILL my feet. I'm trying to decide between a cheap pair to get by (but will they cause me more pain than help?) or busting the bank for new GOOD shoes. I can't decide. But since I can't make up my mind, I'll just let my piggy bank do the talking for now. :) Ode to joy.

My anxiety has been getting worse. :-/ They would give me lorazepam for it and since I already have some, they said to try cutting it in half and if that doesn't work, they'll write me a prescription for something else, and if it does work, they can write me a prescription for a smaller dose than I have. I haven't taken any yet. I've stopped taking all pills because of my throat. I'm using an essential oil blend called Serenity for now. I don't know if it's helping or not, but it does have calming scents, so I guess that's a move in the right direction. :) Anxiety is new for me, but with the kids, the potty-training, school starting, balancing schedules and life, my house, and everything cancer related, I don't feel bad for having it. They said it's actually very common for people to get it AFTER their treatments are done because then they sit around waiting for results, waiting to be cured, etc. And because you've had this tight schedule of doctor's visits and whatnot and that suddenly stops. That part is actually pretty weird to me. :) And so... I have anxiety. :) It should go away in a few months. I hope so. :)

My mom is coming to visit and I'm very excited, but my house is not. Good thing she loves me no matter what! :)